Right here waiting for you

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' CrAzY

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' cRaZy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

By: Richard Marx

Just can't stop writing

Seems i just cannot stop writing yet...Guess what, today i managed to buy 28 tickets to Dandara...While tomorrow i still need to go to ramses to buy return ticket from Dandara...Alhamdulillah everything went smoothly for today..Syukran Li Sayyidina Nabi...So it is true that our faith will be tested and therefore it will increase trough that experience...

Not gonna write much but i'm a very grateful guy today..While for her, this is my promise...not a bad artist i am.

We are a fighter but yet a lover

Friendship isn't always easily described. The Eskimos, they say, have a hundred different words for snow. Unfortunately, the English language isn't quite as innovative, though it has vast opportunities to differentiate meaning. Certainly, Love is one of those opportunities. And so, too, is Friendship.

Instead of different words, however, we're stuck with simple adjectives. Close friend. Best friend. Childhood friend. Intimate friend. Trusted friend. Beloved friend. But whether you use adjectives or different words, few could deny the nearly infinite meaning in such a simple word.

Friends are special people. We can't pick our family, and we're sorely limited in the number of them at any rate. Society and mores (and often our own conscience) dictate we select a single mate. But our friends can be as diverse and infinite as the adjectives we choose. Our friends, in a very real sense, reflect the choices we make in life.Guess who...While the rembrants once say in their song:

So no one told you life was gonna be this way
Your jobs a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.

It's like you're always stuck in second gear
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,
or even your year
but..

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

You're still in bed at ten
And work began at eight
You've burned your breakfast
So far... things are goin' great

Your mother warned you there'd be days like these
Oh but she didn't tell you when the world has brought
You down to your knees that...

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

No one could ever know me
No one could ever see me
Seems you're the only one who knows
What it's like to be me
Someone to face the day with
Make it through all the rest with
Someone I'll always laugh with
Even at my worst I'm best with you, yeah

It's like you're always stuck in second gear
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,
or even your year...

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

Courage

A wise man once had quote

“Have patience with all things, but chiefly have patience with yourself. Do not lose courage in considering your own imperfections but instantly set about remedying them - every day begin the task anew.”

But as normal, saying is much easier than acting on it..I'm not so sure why..But these few days back i'm soooo exhausted..Not knowing why..maybe i'm going trough some obstacles but then while going trough my black magic book i notice another wise man once said:

“If you're trying to achieve, there will be road blocks. I've had them; everybody has had them. But obstacles don't have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don't turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it.”

Therefore i re-check my purposes...Alhamdulillah it is still the same..Do it for Him The most Gracious and also for His Beloved Prophet Alaihi Salawatullahi Wassalaam.

I would to share with all of you this one poem by Barudi that explain about love.Unfortunately it is in arabic..So good for me but hard work for you..Because if you like to know and understand the meaning within,you just have to do some research..haha..So the saying will goes like this:

سمع الخليُّ تأوّهي فتلفتا وأصابه عجبٌ وقال مَنِ الفتي؟

فأجبته إني أمرؤٌ لعب الأسى بفؤاده يوم النوى فتشتتا

أنظر إليّ تجد خيالا باليا تحت الثياب يكاد ألا يُنعتا

قد كان لي قلبٌ أصاب سوادهُ سهمٌ لطرف فاترٍ فتفتتا

تبع الهوى قلبي فهام وليته قبل التوغل في البلاء تثبتا

ألقته في شَرَك المحبة غادةٍ هيهات!ليس بصاحبي إن أفلتا!

كالورد خدا و البنفسج طُرة والغصن قدا والغزالة مَلفِتَا

تالله لو علم العذول بما جنى طَرْفِي عليّ لسَاءه أن يَشمَتا

طرفٌ أطلت عنانه ليصيب لي بعض المني فأصابني لما أتى

ياقلب حسبك قد أفاق معاشرٌ وأراك تدأب في الهوى فإلى متى؟

By the way, don't forget hah all of you to celebrate the Birthday of Our Precious Prophet Salawatullahi Alaihi..It is just around the corner..So don't miss it..And why should all of you give a damn if some of that ungrateful fellow telling you that celebration for Our Prophet is an innovation that will lead us to infedelity. Because whoever happy for Him Alaihi Salawatullahi Wassalaam..He will be happy for us.


So just wanna inform all of you..For this coming weeks i'm gonna be very busy..So just gonna share with all of you after i'm done with my responsibilities..And responsibilities never end...And yah also especially for her..Just wanna tell you how much i miss you...Make a guess..haha..

Till we meet again..Luv u

We are human being after all

Hello ladies and gentlemen...Today i learnt new lessons again..A few hours ago, we had a soccer tournament.Unfortunately we lost 1 - 0 with Sabah.Not a bad result but still to go home with a lost is totally upset.Should we keep reminding about that fluke goal toward us or trying our best to look that tomorrow as a new day and as a new challenge.

I belief if we are keep repeating about that lost we will never raise to other stage..Instead of memories for us to be better.It will be nightmare that will block our path as human being..But if we learnt from that mistakes..A mistake that we accept together as a team..As one..than we will upgrade furter..Not just we are gonna be better but the bond of brotherhood will be stronger..We accept our shortcomings,admit our mistakes and look at our past as our guide for our own future then we wll be up there without us notice it.

I realized one thing, at the end of the day we are still a creation that called human being.We intend to make mistake either with intention nor unintentionally.Therefore,we must hold on each other,support one another as of course we try to amend our ways together not just to be a better muslim but also the sincerity towards each other as brothers.Thats all folks

It's tough but i'm ok

My journey continue..As for today, i started to realized that everything in this world could not be obtain only by hard work..It is also depend on patience,pray,hope and most of all believe in ourself...But then people will started to question..I'm working so hard for certain purpose.And if i fail what should i do?

You see my friends, the purpose in this life is just to obey the command of Allah and Rasulullah Alaihi Salawatullahi Wassalam.While the result is a must for all of us to leave it to Allah and Rasulullah Salawatullahi Wassalaam..

It had been few days since i went to Ramsis ( train station in cairo ) to buy tickets to travel to Qina..But then i always left with a dissapointment. I'm not so sure why,but the officer will always give a sarcastic reason by saying : There is no ticket for non-arabs..I started to give up and just let it be..

Suddenly i ponder for a while..For whom i'm doing this..and why i'm doing this..I will be true to all of you..I'm not yet a good muslim but i'm totally sure the purpose of a muslim..Its a bit contradict but nevermind..

Yah,i'm doing this because i wanted to celebrate the Ihtifal of Salawatullahi Wassalaam with my brothers in Dandara..And i'm doing this because of Him the Sayyidil Basyar..And if you want the best,it will never come easy..Because you are facing obstacles,challenges whatever you called it..You will strive for it and you will appreaciate it more than ever...

So thats it..Try your best in whatever you are doing..Never stop..Don't ever thing to give up..Just do your job.And leave everything to the most authority and the most precious to take care of everything..Insya'allah you will be fine

So don't worry so much about the result..Just do it..Yah,i guess the motto for the sports entertainments are true..haha..till we meet again..

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before?
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start

Ohh, but hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight when you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

Somehow

Somehow i manage to smile and laugh freely for today..All of my burden was being released for a while..Somehow i able to see my future clearly, not absolute but better than before...Somehow my soul is lively again,not sure how long it will last but it will be enough to carry out my spirit at it best.

Yesterday was the critical moment for me..Wondering how i will face the test of courage..How long could my endurance last..Alhamdulillah, everything went well, not impressive but well..Today that courage and endurance are being regenerated by listening to those voices.. A voice of unity,a voice of brotherhood and a voice of hope...

While tomorrow is still unseen.It is still hazy,unclear but because of these gifts i notice life is not so bad when you lost someone dear to you..Accept the reality..You gonna lost someone.And someone will replace that lost..but it will never be the same.The pain could heal but the memories will remain..

Therefore, i will go on walking this lonely path without companion except with a heart of belief that Allah and Rasululluah Alaihi Salawatullahi Wassalaam will guide me till the end of this long journey that me myself does not know the end. Once again,thanks to all of you.

Its still a long way to go

It seems everything change for an instant..I'm not self motivated, i took a risk, felt dejected and most of all i felt and still feel guilty till this moment...But then i take a look at my past and future...

The past me i know i'm simply the best..and of course not to compare myself with others...Although i realized i had made big and small decision..i'm fully steep with enthusiasm and never ever regret with my own decision except one.A man with a vision..Understand my mission and most of all i know what i'm doing.

The future me, i realized i can be someone big.Someone who are reliable..A person who will offer any help to anyone even though he is my rival..Not to mention the so called enemy..Haha, don't hate your enemies, it effect our judgement..And of course to pursue my ambition at a highest peak that i could achieve.

But then, my present is totally contradict with my past and do not reflect my future..I'm replete in my own world..A world which i had made mistake..A decision that i totally regret and soaked in sadness...I cry like a baby..I eat a humble pie..But still the heart of acceptance is close neatly without any opportunities to redeem myself again..No more trust..Letting them down..and the memories keep haunting me..Even i scream nor i beg..No one will come and hold my hand again..

To whom should i lean..On whose shoulder should i cry..Should i live with this punishment till i close my eyes..You might not understand my words.You will never understand how vunerable i am..but deep inside, i believe one day i will rise again and getting better and better..I will promise not to fall again and not to moarn on something nor someone that left me because of my ridiculous decision..And of course i'm not gonna make any stupid move..That is a must..

Shall we meet again, i will and i must fix everything..Not because of symphaty but i just wanna prove my love to you once again..

He is going home

We will always remember you:

This romeo is bleeding
But you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up

It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up

I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me

And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always

Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I've made mistakes, I'm just a man

When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you've been needing to hear
I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mine
To say to you till the end of time

Yeah, I will love you baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always

If you told me to cry for you
I could
If you told me to die for you
I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you

Well, there ain't no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We'll find a place where the sun still shines

And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always

Will you accept me again?

Darlin� I can�t explain
Where did we lose our way
Girl it�s drivin� me insane
And I know I just need one more chance
To prove my love to you
If you come back to me
I�ll gurantee
That I�ll never let you go

Can we go back to the days when our love was strong
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong
Can somebody tell me how to get things back
They way they use to be
Oh God give me a reason
I�m down on bended knee
I�ll never walk again until you come back to me
I�m down on bended knee


So many nights I dream of you
Holding my pillow tight
I know that I don�t need to be alone
I open up my eyes
To face reality
Every moment without you
It seems like eternity
I�m begging you, begging you come back to me



Baby, I�m sorry
Please forgive me for all the wrong I�ve done
Please come back home girl
I know you put all your trust in me
I�m sorry I let you down
Please forgive me


Gonna swallow my pride
Say I�m sorry
Stop pointing fingers the blame is on me
I want a new life
And I want it with you
If you feel the same
Don�t ever let it go
You gotta believe in the spirt of love
It can heal all things
We won�t hurt anymore
No I don�t believe our love�s terminal
I�m down on my knees begging you please
Come home

On bended knees

I realized how much i love her when only i realized the mistake that i convict..Should when i'm reticent,misunderstanding occurs..When i'm trying to shower my love with sincerity bad things happen...I'm so sad but yet i can still smiling..It hurt inside but i try to stand on my feet although barely...

I ask for forgiveness but it is being rejected. Make me realized one thing..My mistake is a sin and totally unacceptable..Tell me, what should i do to make things right..Because what i learn is totally contradict with what i perform.If only she understand why i'm doing this, will she will be able to accept me again...

I'm not sure but yet i will still be here waiting for her forgiveness although it is impossible for her...I promise to myself i will take this as a punishment that i should face and will not fall in love again...

I just want a new life..And i want it to be with her...Could it get back together the day when our love was strong..I'm on bended knees..

Misunderstanding

Tell me my friends..i just did the biggest mistake in my life..And everything change for an instant. Although she looks ok..But deep inside her,i understand she is hurt of my own stupidity..Very hurt..deeply...ok;;i can't write anything yet...Emotional conflicts..

I'm still alive

Haha..how are all of you? hope you doing very fine..it had been few months since i last update this blog..And yah, life is also a learning process every sec..Incidents took place..facing with difficult choices..memories and alot more..Thats why we could never prognosticate our own future..because life is full of surprises.

And til this moment, when i refresh that memories it had mould me to be a better man. Not perfect but better than before..Although some of the memories were bad memories but i accept it as part of our life. I agreed with al of you that human make mistake..We had to accept failure as one of the path that we should face.. I also believe that regrets in certain decisions is undeniable. But the question, what should we do after that interminable wait of hapless incidents.

The answer: Change for the better.

You see my friends, in all of us are instil with values, dignity and awareness...Like some of our comunity they have a mindset believing that they will fail in whatever they do..But i believe that we must accept a failure not think as a failure...Because as a human being we must improve from being worse to bad..and from bad to good and etc..But still that comment is my own believe..haha( can't force anyone )

We must aim high but be realistic..We must think like a great philosopher but be idealistic...So the idea is there..but to make the theories to be seen we must put it into practices..And to implement that theory to improve depends on own values.

Recently i have been presented with tough obstacles. A choice that i should make..If you gonna ask me..How do i feel? Damn.( hah,understand ) But i just had to do it..And i believe with the pride and determination that i hold strong. Just do it and admit your mistake if it is wrong and don't be complacent if things go right..Because to realise our own mistake is the most impossible things that a human being will do..

I guess thats all for now..you have fun out there. Hold strongly to someone that you love sincerelyBecause if you gonna ask me what i regret most in my life..Leaving her..Could i amend that mistake?I would never will unless i admit my mistake..And so the beginning of my love story just begin. My advice, Never let them go whatever happen. And don't make a mistake like i did..ok.