7 days

1st day...it will be always about searching my inner strength....because right now,all cells are being affected by the disease...Miracle it is Ramadan.

2nd day...I raise both of my arms...asking from Him and Prophet Alaihi Salawatullahi Wassalaam to guide me...To forgive my sin...while i'm a sinner,i also a human being..And that explain everything.Miracle i have brothers.

3rd day....My mind is somewhere else....it just would not stay at one place...It will wonder and assume...Miracle the roar reminds me.

4th day....I realize what does it mean to be human..What does it means that TheProphet Alaihi Salawatullahi Wassalaam lives within me...Miracle i being granted my wishes.

5th day...I grasp all the air...and again i rise as the crusader...cause once i was a fallen giant but that fighting spirit sparkle once again.Miracle is i never give up.

6th day....Their faces came to my vision...The brotherhood...the memories....the path that i chose...and then a soul name present took place...it told me...You could not change the past but you could change the end...Its up to you to choose..If you keep dwelling on the past,you will be a disgrace to the mankind...If you keep moving,you will be a legacy...I as the present will walk beside you and the future is waiting for you....so i choose to keep moving... because someone keeps whispering...telling me...Ilyas,you are much stronger than you thought...Miracle is the story will not be the same again.

7th day....I'm smiling...because i get trough it once again...Miracle is we live under one blue sky.

Wow,that's one hell of step...But hey,what's the point believing in miracle when you never use it..Think..It just takes 7 days.

This is my way of.....

Now i understand what does it mean to be free...you know...to be alone at my room...fill with different kind of books...not to mention the temptation to sleep for long hours....and hey...i managed to break out from the cage that i built in my mind....

To learn something will never ever be meaningful unless you learn what the outside world mean...you just need to apply what you had learn along these years so you could see the benefit of that small amount of knowledge...

Like there is a difference between ilm and makrifah...while ilm is to know the details and application...while makrifah is to know something in a very limited volume...( now,that structure is wrong )

But hey, be free...but be aware of your surrounding....freedom...use it wisely...while work without fun make jack a dull boy....so enjoy every moment...learn...and apply...learn to take a risk...

And i just learn it today....so just free to be you...roar...now that's remind me of someone....haha

My heart

This is what i have been longing for....For the Prophet Alaihi Salawatullahi Wassalaam to flourish my heart once again with love...because i believe only with Him i could raise once again...Its gonna be hard...but yah...all i need is just hope...

Clear the blockage

That's why knowing is not the same of experiencing it....Suddenly the words...the condolences....the willingness....when thanks will never be enough....so i presented my gratitude for making the sleeping lion raises once again....

While i perceive...to move forward...someone just have to erase the past...but i also believe the past will be the enthusiasm for someone to keep moving till the soul depart from that lonely body...

But hey...whenever i'm sad...whenever i'm gonna break into pieces...i realize there will always be someone to pick me up and stay by my side forever even when the eyesight is unclear...i feel the presence always....

I just......

Now a new chapter of my life had just begin...which i assume should be better than before...i should be stronger than my previous hours...and most of all,my heart is totally calm....but damn..that's all just an assumption....

The real me at this moment...i'm lost and not to mention the heart that's full of fragile compartment...and i just got astray in my own long journey...and that's so pathetic...

I tried to share with someone though...but hey...no one would care anywhere...I tried to ignore the presence...but my heart always worry about the details...I even tried not to think about it...but this mind had started to downgraded itself from the standard of a wise man to naive of an infant...and that's suck....

So i search around me...something or someone that could inspire my sight and of course to reopen the ventilation that had been stuck in me for a while...wow...i found nothing...while crying will not help...so i suppress the feeling till it destroy my limb that i could not walk no more as a gentlemen...it even destroy my box of emotion that make me wonder what does love means once to me...and does true love ever exist in this world that rotate every few sec....

I wonder...

So a story that i started....will be a point where my journey will begin once again...not as a warrior that defend its love..but as a crusader that search for the true meaning of love...and i start with that one step....

Envoke

Finally...The Rock has come back to his best...

Gonna write again..

Gonna share again...

Gonna raise again...

The best it is...

The best it was...

And the best it will be...