Ok...just woke up..received a bad news..cannot do anything..people talk about respect..friends..examination...future...And in every that particulars incidents there will be characters..A names of the actor and actress...And i'm the main role-play..It is because it is my life...
For years i have known a lot of peoples...with different backgrounds..some are so steeped in their own world..While others are so determined to reconcile the Ummah..While there is also a throng of people who is just getting better and better..
Some are dear to me while some are not..Some that i could consider friends and some take me as their enemy...Interesting how life it is...and today the character that had been with me along since i'm an infant is my mother...
Asnah...it should be hasnah..if you gonna look at the point of linguistic..come on don't ever think to argue with me on that..:)...the beauty...the best nature that i look up on my mother is never say die attitude..she is so sincere that makes she is always alone..Because reality is unfair to her..Everyone want to listen to good things but not the bad side of reality...
There is one incident when my mother yell at me and said..Ilyas, are you gonna be filial when i die..if that the way you are then you better go to hell...haha..bad ilyas...i'm not family oriented yet i guess..There is also a time when she beat me up like a prisoner of Guantanamo...So you should know the bruises just anywhere..But a mother is always a mother..They will regrets on their own-doings..It is not because they want to hurt others..it is just life is so unfair to them sometimes that make their reaction is totally comprehend to me when i put myself in her shoes..
Because later at night, she will enter my bedroom quietly just not to wake me up...Slowly she will attain me and apply medicine on the bruises...And while doing that she will cry..Once i heard she said..Ilyas,i'm sorry for my wrong-doings towards you..It is just i could not carry the burden of being an outcast from my own family..( long story ).And your father is always out because of his job ( i agree, i do not even remember when is the last time my father show his expression )so only to you i could express the hatred, the sadness and the depression...and i knew, my action was wrong..I'm sorry son..
I do not really understand at that moment..Because once i even said that my mother was a bad person...Oh Allah please forgive my sin towards her..Should ask forgiveness when i'm back..
And slowly time passed, and here i am..i'm 26..a man but a boy at heart..I understand one thing..to built a family is a dream for every woman..and to choose a husband is every woman wish...and to be that good husband,he is someone that will always be right there for her wife..defend her..attain her when she in needs..and most of all,a smile on that lips when they meet together in their own little world.If a success of a man beside him lays a woman..Then every happy woman beside them a man who could hold them to stand firmly...
And because a prince that is so close to his Queen..I inherit the attitude of my Queen ...very emotional..never say die..good at compress own feelings..Which i believe the names that enter in my life story..the names that i invite in my story...the names that i create in my story will just have to accept the attitude that i possess from the individual being that i respect the most..My mother..
At the end of my story, i might triumph as the warrior..i also might be the villain..even worst i might die alone..or happy ending with flowers bouquets around me...And will always be remembered as someone who left a legacy...
Therefore, i pray to Allah and ask Rasulullah Alaihi Salawatullahi Wassalaam to take care of my only mother..the Queen of my heart..to bless her..to grant her wishes..and most of all for her to have a calm heart when she left this world for the hereafter...
Hail to The Queen..
