Friday, May 8, 2009

Have you ever loved someone but could not show it...


To realize that you love someone so badly after he or she left you is nothing more than a torment of a lifetime..

I do not understand the saying until i met a wise man who show me the true meaning of loving someone...So the scene goes like this:

I: Sir, how do i know that i really love someone?

Wise man: Do you like your shirt that you are wearing right now?

I: I don't think so...Why? (confused)

Wise man: If you are gonna lost that shirt you are wearing right now on the desert and you are left half naked at the season of winter..What will you feel?

I: I will feel cold Sir..And i will wish how i will not lost it.

Wise man: It means you only realize the importance of the shirt when bad things happen to it which left you regret on the loss..And that is how you measure your love towards someone...

I: Ok...That's cool..but then how will i know that he or she is the one that i love and what should i do for not letting it go?

Wise man:( Looking around him and he grab a stick and trying to beat me with it)

I: ( Without delay,raise my arm to defend myself )

Wise man: ( Smiling ) Why you defend yourself?

I: Instinct...It is because you want to beat me.

Wise man: That's is the answer if you want it to stay..then you will defend it..No matter what the cost is gonna be...You defend yourself because you do not want to be hurt..You defend your love ones because you would never dare to hurt them....

I: (Crying) how pity i am...i loss my love one because i could not defend her..And i only realize how deep my love for her when she gone...

Wise man: Believe young man..May Allah and His Prophet Alaihi Salawatullahi Wassalaam guide your path and meet her again..And strengthen your fragile soul to be one again..

I: Thanks Sir..

Wow...And guess what..the burden in my heart is lift a bit..and now i could understand life a bit clearer....Hope she is reading this...

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

I'm shouting


At this moment..my heart is shouting loud..my heart is crumble..my heart is uneasy till i lost goodnight sleep..my heart is searching for the answers..my heart is praying for guidance...my heart is asking for forgiveness...

Would i be forgotten by my love ones..would i be gone astray and will never ever walk on a straight path again..would you be my companion if i request..would you listen to my weep if i could not deny being hurt...would you forgive me if i betray you again and again..would you tape my heart if it had broken to pieces...would you heed my advice just because i care for you...would you hold my hand for a while even you are not gonna here...

What kept inside me will always remain a secret..what i shared will always a burden that i could not carry it any longer..

The future is full of surprises..the heart of my love ones is kept just within her..How could i understand when it is not reveal..And how could i act if i do not understand..Oh Allah..please enlighten me with the answer..please connect me to Prophet Alaihi Salawatullahi Wassalaam so i will be calm..Until then,i will just believe....

Monday, April 27, 2009

It's time...


At last..i had found the answer for the only question that had been playing in my head for years..The question that could not be answered by academic knowledge..not even a wise man could..

Only by walking with proud but humble on this world..someone like me who had yearning for the answer for a long time...What someone could do if he reads the Quran but do not ponder and act on it..What someone could understand of the saying of the Prophet Alaihi Salawatullahi Wassalaam if he does not bind with zat Alaihi Salawatullahi Wassalaam...

Therefore, at this moment..i prays to Allah and thanks Rasulullah Alaihi Salawatullahi Wassalaam for the answer that had been given to me...

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

UNIFYING ZA'AMAH II

Continuation of UNIFYING ZA'AMAH I

2nd Consideration: A Muslim’s Irtibat with the unique prophetic self of Rasulullah SAW will change his self formation (Takwin).

We understand that a Muslim cannot change his self formation by holding on to the Risalah Al Muhammadiyah (Final Message) [Maslak, Suluk, Manhaj, and Minhaj]. It is made clear in which only through Irtibat (binding of faith) with his dzat (person) of Rasulullah sollallahu'alaihiwassalam can a Muslim change his self formation.

Thus it is not enough to follow his Risalah through Rasulullah’s sollallahu'alaihiwassalam first role as the Rasul that Finalizes Islam. However, he must follow the 2 nd role of which that he is the Zaim that Unites the Muslimin to change his self formation.

3rd Consideration: Rasulullah’s sollallahu'alaihiwassalam role of Siyadah and Za’amah continues even after his Intiqal.

A sizable portion of the Muslim population believe that Rasulullah’s sollallahu'alaihiwassalam Siyadah and Za’amah are entitled only to the fellow Companions and Mukmins that live during his time. To answer this assumption and preconception, we have to look back to the Islamic divine evidences (nas-nas) that become the reference of our principles of faith (aqidah) and the thinking of those who have faith.

We begin this analysis of the continuity of Rasulullah’s sollallahu'alaihiwassalam Siyadah to all who have faith, be it for those who live during the time of Rasulullah sollallahu'alaihiwassalam, his Intiqal or the day when there is nobody left in this world that says “I am a Muslim”. There are evidences quoted from the verses of Al Qur’an Al Karim and the Prophet’s sollallahu'alaihiwassalam glorious hadiths.

Firstly, all verses of Al Qur’an Al Karim that command the obligation to follow and obey Rasulullah sollallahu'alaihiwassalam project his Siyadah. All the verses are not restricted to only the Muslims that lived during the time of Rasulullah’s sollallahu'alaihiwassalam human life. However the law of the verses encompass to the whole ummah until the end of time.

Secondly, the glorious hadiths which contain the term Siyadah remind those who have faith that Rasulullah’s sollallahu'alaihiwassalam Siyadah is not only limited during his human life. At the same time Rasulullah’s sollallahu'alaihiwassalam Siyadah is not only limited during a person’s life. His Siyadah is ongoing during a mukmin’s life, his death and hereafter.

Rasulullah sollallahu'alaihiwassalam says which means, “By the One whom my life is in His Hand, indeed I am the master of humans in the day of Qiamat, without boasting or bragging”.

Rasulullah sollallahu'alaihiwassalam also says which means, “I am the master of Adam’s sons and I am the first one whom the Earth open up for me with the permission of Allah, the first person to give syafaat and the first to receive syafaat.”

Next we discuss the continuity of Rasulullah’s SAW unifying Za’amah to all who have faith, regardless whether they live during or after the time of Rasulullah’s sollallahu'alaihiwassalam human life. This is because Rasulullah’s sollallahu'alaihiwassalam Za’amah is a Za’amah that is constant in this world and hereafter. There are evidences quoted from the verses of Al Quran Al Karim and the Prophet’s sollallahu'alaihiwassalam glorious hadiths.

Firstly, every verse of Al Qu’ran Al Karim that explains Rasulullah sollallahu'alaihiwassalam is a Guarantor whom exists in each individual that follow and obey Rasulullah sollallahu'alaihiwassalam proves his unifying Za’amah. The verses clearly show that these statements do not become void after Rasulullah’s sollallahu'alaihiwassalam Intiqal. In fact, the verses are the judgment of the syariah law that is applicable to the whole ummah in all age and time.

Secondly, the glorious hadiths which shows us to the Za’amah of Rasulullah sollallahu'alaihiwassalam for the Muslim Ummah, which penetrates through all eras till beyond life in Dunia such that we are able to witness that his guarantee to those who have faith is evident in life in Akhirah.

Indeed this is the Za’amah of the person of Rasulullah sollallahu'alaihiwassalam who accepts the pledge of those who pledge to him and gathers his guarantee to those who pledge to him with both the guarantees of Dunia and Akhirah.

Rasulullah sollallahu'alaihiwassalam says which means, “I am the Zaim in the house in Heaven for those who resist bragging, although it is a true problem. I am also the Zaim in the house of Heaven for those who leaves a lie, even if the lie is a joke and I am the Zaim in the house of the highest Heaven for those with good character.”

Rasulullah sollallahu'alaihiwassalam also says which means, “I am the Zaim, and Zaim is a guarantor, for those who have faith in me, embrace Islam, and migrates, in the house of Heaven, in the house in the middle of Heaven. And I am the Zaim for those who have faith in me, embrace Islam and Jihad in the way of Allah, in the house of Heaven, in the house in the middle of heaven and in the house in the highest rooms of Heaven. Those who have done as such and constantly do good and leave the bad, he shall die as how he wishes to.

This article is an excerpt from the encyclopedia Asda’ Wasiqah Baidha’: Takwin Wa Kiyan by Dr Su’ad Al-Hakim, a professor in Islamic Philosophy and Sufism which was written in Arabic. This encyclopedia provides evidences from Al Quran Al Karim and Al Hadith Ash Sharif and cross references to Islamic history with the aim of supporting the book by Al Fadhl Bin Al Abbas Ad Dandarawi, Al-Usrah Ad-Dandarawiyah, Takwin Wa Kiyan (Built and Model). This book explains the disunity of the Ummah that started since the 18th century because the Ummah separate the leadership of The Master of Mankind sollallahu'alaihiwassalam from Islam.


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Something just not right


I wonder...if i had friends anymore..
I wonder...if my emotion is going retaliate...
I wonder...if i had love someone or anyone...

Because after a long journey..i'm stuck in the middle..feeling alone..and loneliness accompany me along the way...If should i give up the trust then overcame the past challenges will be meaningless..It will only be a dream that could not be achieved...Something inside my heart is trying to tell me something but it could not reach my ears...My mind is confused...I look around me..searching for someone..To tell my problems..to torment my loss..to ask for advice..but damn,no one is there..Not even a soul that i could cling on..And all that i request,a shoulder to cry on...Should i weep bitter tears of remorse..then i should pray to be a baby when i wake up in the next morning...but to wipe the tears..i'm lying to myself because my heart is crying inside...

Meeting you is a bless...Dreaming of you is what i wish for...Reconciling with you is a hope that i hold till this moment...

Therefore, i realise a thing..The reason why i'm still walking...because there is always a hope inside you for me..Thanks...


Avenged Sevenfold

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
And all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah


Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
When hope begins to fade

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find

Monday, April 6, 2009

The memories remain

Am i cool or what




I'm still young and naive.



I'm still young, naive and vulnerable.




Damn, what i'm doing.





I'm still searching...




New chapter begins....





Not that young, not that naive, getting stronger but the searching and learning still continue...



How would i forget the moment and their faces when they are dear to me...




From a boy i became a man..from nil i carry out my responsibilities and from the obstacles i gain my experiences..But will i ever leave a legacy?




To be wise man might be something i dream of..But still i'm far from that description..I'm getting older..What had i achieved..



The new me..Having said all these.My path is still far..but still the memories will always accompany my journey..To reflect my past..remember my comrades..To groom me to better in present and become a legend in future..Well said

hell yeah

ok...now i have something to share with all you...The important criteria to be a leader is to put everyone else before ourselves...Because for the real fact, a leader is someone who serve his people...And that is the teaching of our Prophet Alaihi Salawatullahi Wassalaam..

And because of that..and of course an incident took place few hours back..Suddenly i'm full of energy, my self confidence had raise to a level of excellent...The spirit of enthusiasm and most of all my path is getting clearer...Not rushing things but the faith to reach that certain goal in my life is higher than before...Thanks Allah And Rasulullah Alaihi Salawatullahi Wassalaam...

Just a wish that i asked had not been granted yet..And that to cure the missing potion in my heart..But still i'm grateful...Don't get greedy boy..