Khatimah cinta

Seize The Day

Hmmm....Nice

All guys are the same

I'm history...
Please forgive me dear...
You are my everything...
Please let me explain...
Trust me...

My comment will be...bullshit...haha..Once, a friend of mine asked me..are the guys all the same?does they play with words?

My answer will be..yah..most of the guys but not all of the guys..And i'm not excluded...You see my dear readers..as a guy,we almost make wrong judgments or decisions in choosing our life partners..we would want the best..and because of that we will produce the best words and the best excuses..and thats why it is call the fabricated love..we trample the girls hearts..we crush their trust and most of all we never ever appreciate the second chance that had been given to us...

Therefore,guys are famish species..they are damn bloody greedy and will always act like they care but get tired at the end of the day..Funny but thats is one of the reality..but to judge all of them as one is totally unacceptable...

There is also live a throng of guys that really love their life partners sincerely...except the fear of being jilted or ditched that what makes a person to hold back their words...You will never hear the words I Love You..not even My dear...but the fact is..they really care...and that will create another problem..their life partners will assume that they never care..not because of the action but because of the words...So i guess they are two groups of guy..someone that is good and damn bloody good at words and someone that is totally suck at words but impart their true love trough action...

While i'm trying to be the second..i also cannot ignore the 1st...because both will make your heart full of unconditionally love...Therefore i amend the 1st by praying to God ask the Prophet Alaihi Salawatullahi Wassalaam to take care of her...and will fill her heart with happiness and never again being hurt or cheated..and replace the bitterness of life with prosperity and progress for her nation as a woman...

As for my action...i will go on trying to prove bit by bit..and most of all..to be sincere in my doings...because seriously,it is damn bloody hard to show an action that is not being side dishes...sorry for the terms...While she is fighting for her family..he is fighting for her...and i'm fighting and will go on fighting for myself,for her,for him...and for everyone...and if they could listen to my remorse...I just wanna them to know that...

I really care..and i really do...

Myself

My name is Ilyas Bin Zakaria...I'm proud with that name that had been entitled to me by my parents.Which of course they planned to name me Iskandar Zulkarnain Shah...but my father disagreed...Reason,what a long name..therefore they came up with consensus to address me Ilyas..A jew name if i'm not mistaken..because if it is gonna be in arabic it will be hopeless...haha

Would it be enough just to understand someone by that bit of introduction..it will never be...To understand someone,you need to be patience...hey,i do not mean to fix a person..i said..To UNDERSTAND a person..even our own family..we might realize their bad and good character..but it does not mean you understand them inside them totally...It is just you need the enthusiasm and endurance to scuba diving...deep inside them...even a little of emotion that they shared with you..it will be enough although it will never be...

And so i'm still searching for my soul that live within me...not to fix what went wrong..but to understand my own strengths and weaknesses...so i could benefit and use it at the right way and at the right time...a friend once taught me that in life you need to keep walking..stop only to catch your breathe..and then continue the journey..If you intend to stop the searching then death is better for you...i laugh at the moment but now i able to see clear as a crystal behind that wisdom.

Take Care

A phrase that means a lot to me for someone..nah..not gonna run nor leave no more...it is just deep bottom of my heart,i realize that i could not be there always for her..but the hope that she will be alright facing this cruel world..and not to mention hidden mysteries that stay unseen...

Therefore i'm gonna repeat the phrase thousand times..until the day that fate i have not yet seen nor understand...either she will be the one or otherwise....unpredictable but yet it is full of moments that will be a story to be shared with my descendant one day..how their father,grandfather and great grandfather walking on the path that i call life...Take Care


Desert rose: Sting

I dream of rain
I dream of gardens in the desert sand
I wake in pain
I dream of love as time runs through my hand

I dream of fire
Those dreams are tied to a horse that will never tire
And in the flames
Her shadows play in the shape of a man's desire

This desert rose
Each of her veils, a secret promise
This desert flower
No sweet perfume ever tortured me more than this

And as she turns
This way she moves in the logic of all my dreams
This fire burns
I realize that nothing's as it seem

I dream of rain
I lift my gaze to empty skies above
I close my eyes, this rare perfume
Is the sweet intoxication of her love

I dream of rain
I dream of gardens in the desert sand
I wake in pain
I dream of love as time runs through my hand

Sweet desert rose
Each of her veils, a secret promise
This desert flower
No sweet perfume ever tortured me more than this

Sweet desert rose
This memory of Eden haunts us all
This desert flower, this rare perfume
Is the sweet intoxication of the fall

Dedication

How far a song could affects your feeling?Just wanna share with all of you guys this lyric..Sang by 6ixth Sense...Entitled ( Dari Hati )

Dedicated specially for her...Keep on guessing...haha...Gosh i'm late for my paper...see ya..


Oh Tuhan tolonglah diriku
Aku sungguh menginginkan dia
Untuk mencintaiku dan mendampingiku
Di dalam hidupku ini

Oh Tuhan bukalah hatinya
Untuk melupakan kesalahanku
Yang tlah menjadi duri di dlam hatinya
Dan melukai hatinya

Tolonglah dakap aku yang melukaimu
Aku ingin engkau tahu
Aku selalu cinta padamu

Aku tlah menyesalinya
Semua...

Rothmans

We meet again my faithful readers...just felt so relaxing when i light up my cigarettes..when i'm gonna quit? my mother had babbling enough...my dearest friends had nag like grandmothers...but still i won't quit smoking..it is because of my intention to not quit smoking yet...intention...a very very big scope if we are gonna discuss about it...a wise man had once advise me that when you have the intention to do something...just do it...and Allah and His Prophet Alaihi Salawatullahi Wassalaam will guide you...hmmm...must quit..when and where...hmmm

Two days ago, i met with ash..a pet that we cared but just become a strayed cat because of its ungrateful character...how dare it pees on my beloved laptop...but then meeting with it make me ponder...hey,it is getting bigger..healthier and guess happier...because it got the opportunity to meet with its kind and of course a life of no rules...

When we talked about rules...does it mean we care or otherwise..there are rules everywhere..and if disobey the rules you will get fine..as though a reprimand because offending the rules that had been made...but a saying goes..rule is made to be broken..damn the philosopher...

While tomorrow will be my last examination..it had been fixed but what i will be going trough is still unseen..just have to equip myself and of course to be confidence..and that is part of life after all..what is the use to fight if you do not believe in yourself...what is the use of fighting if you gonna lose in the end...so fight on because you believe..and even though you gonna lose..raise again and fight till your last breathe...wow...what a quote...

Hope she is doing fine..praying the best for her is the least that i could do...

Nickelback: I'd come for you


Just One more moment, that's all that's needed.
Like wounded soldiers in need of healing.
Time to be honest, this time I'm bleeding
Please don't dwell on it, cause I didn't mean it

I cant believe I said I'd lay our love on the ground
But it doesn't matter cause I've made it up forgive me now
Everyday I spend away my souls inside out
Gotta be someway that I can make it up to you now, somehow.

By now you'd know that I'd come for you
No one but you, yes I'd come for you
But only if you told me to
And I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'd always come for you

I was blindfolded, but now I'm seeing
My mind was closing, now I'm believing
I finally know what just what it means to let someone in
To see the side of me that no one does or ever will
So if your ever lost and find yourself all alone
I'd search forever just to bring you home,
Here and now this I vow

Yes I'd come for you, no one but you,
Yes I'd come for you
But only if you told me to

No matter what gets in my way
As long as there's still life in me
No matter what, remember you know I'll always come for you
I'd crawl across this world for you
Do anything you want me to
No matter what, remember you know I'll always come for you
You know I'll always come for you